lessons

I too, have had an interesting time with what I'm learning this week. I'm taking the same course as Ms Donahue and it  had some eye openers for me also. I've been struggling with practicing for the last month with time, but also with enthusiasm, and I couldnt seem to shake it. I've been questioning whether I want my black belt, why I took on so many things, etc,etc, and couldnt seem to break free and just do them. I have realized that a huge reason I'm resisting is I'm afraid. Afraid to try and fail. Afraid even that I could be good enough, that I could be a black belt, so I'm making my fears happen by avoiding training. Avoiding asking for help. One of the things I needed to do after I figured that out (and was willing to admit it) was map out what I needed for success. I know I need lots of encouragement, lots of dragging me out to do techniques or whatever, lots of feedback. I'll be trying to come out of my shell and just be more involved; and I know it will take baby steps. The positive side is I do have a team I can ask. Too bad we cant always say that in all areas of our lives, but we can in this. Thanks in advance team. I will be bugging you--and if I dont, keep me accountable by bugging me:)